a season of adventure

it’s been nearly two years since i have been here. the room looks basically the same. but i do not. not on the inside.

the adventure really started when we finally were able to make the break from Oklahoma. we left that which was familiar and secure behind, which we counted no loss, because the familiar and secure had become a prison long ago. the climate was brutal in the summer, and the winters were too short-lived and brought with them their own kind of challenges. the springs and falls were turbulent, and often disruptive. and secure does not always equate to free. it seemed a ceiling was always over us, keeping us ‘stable’ but never letting us rise.

so we finally left.

we left a few good friends behind, and whatever we couldn’t fit on the moving van. the four cats and two dogs rode in the car with me. the beau drove the van. the drive from Oklahoma to the pacific northwest was, in my opinion, most beautiful and welcome. the skies were as ever-changing as the terrain. even the boring stretched were beautiful to me. something different. i needed different. over 20 years in a place i so didn’t like had laced my soul with lead.

the arrival, four days later, was joyous, seeing my mother again. my siblings were not as excited, but were weren’t as close as i had thought we were, apparently. we settled into her RV after packing away our stuff in storage. the unknown lay before us. the beau had his own tasks ahead of him, and not long after was invested in those tasks. i set out to find work, being reasonably confident with my job history. i was in for a surprise.

it seemed all the doors i expected to be opened we not only shut, but locked. of course, being a covenant woman, i employed my faith to its limits. but as the expenses continues to pile up, the resources seemed to dry up. i spent many hours and tears crying out to God. i stormed the gates of hell. i stormed inside my heart as well. God was always faithful, and met my needs and obligations in the most surprising ways. you would think i would have begun to see it then …

after over a year of seeking the right job, i finally landed it. the beau also began his own pursuit of work, having come through his own fiery test. things have been on the upswing since then, although not without challenges. challenges will always be there.  

but the greatest change has come most recently. in all my seeking the Lord, and His word, and employing my faith, i have begun to see with more clarity than i ever have. as He has promised in His word – which word He has magnified about all His name – He has begun to reveal His covenant to me. i am beginning to see what it means, not only to have Christ in me, the hope of Glory, but what it means to be in Christ, seated at the right hand of God in the heavenlies. blessed with all spiritual blessings just as He is. invited to partake of a covenant that i had absolutely nothing to do with creating, but which was made entirely for me. a covenant so secure it can never be broken, because the two parties involved are God the Father and Jesus the son of man, the second Adam. the seed of abraham. the word made flesh.

this awareness fosters in me a unique kind of excited peace, that really cannot be shaken unless i allow it. and i will not allow it. it also ignites my faith like a mighty flame. the warrior in me is standing.

so, as i said. this little room of a blog here is just as i left it some 20 months ago. but the me that has returned is nothing like the me that left.

I am thankful


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I am thankful today. I am thankful that God is a covenant keeper. I am thankful that He has made me a part of the seed of abraham, placed me in Christ Who is seated at the right hand of the Father. I am thankful that Christ redeemed me from the curse of the law, being made a curse for me, that the blessing of abraham might come on me. I am thankful that the righteous requirements of the law are fulfilled in me because God sent His Son in the likeness of flesh to condemn sin in the flesh, that all the blessing of that law can come on me and overtake me. I am thankful that even when I have let fear in, and spoken accordingly, and brought the curse into my life and affairs, that God restores the years that the locust has eaten. restores – shalam : nothing missing, nothing broken. for that is His covenant with me, a covenant of peace – shalam. nothing missing, nothing broken.

this last year has been a walk through the valley of the shadow of death. there have been storms. there has been frustration, disappointment, betrayal, loss. it has been like just getting to the crest of a very difficult climb, only to be sent tumbling to the bottom once again, but with bruises and cuts added. it has been dark, with only the light of God’s word to light my path. but light my path it did. because the word was made flesh, and is that Son sent to seal the covenant in His own blood. and how, then, could it ever fail? indeed, the passage that says

Numbers 23:19
God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?

takes on new meaning when you think about that. His word cannot fail, but has to come to pass.

Isaiah 55:9-11
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:

 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.

God has magnified His word above all His name. and I am thankful. and now my feet are like hinds feet on high places. the blessing is beginning to come upon me and overtake me, as promised. I don’t walk though death valley alone, you know.

that’s not religion


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Psalms 138:2 says I will worship toward thy holy temple, and praise thy name for thy loving kindness and for thy truth: for thou hast magnified thy word above all thy name.

magnified, in the original hebrew, is gadal – to grow, become great or important, promote, make powerful, praise, magnify, do great things

that’s a very strong statement to make about God and His name, which name is above every name that can be named, both in the heavens, and in the earth. why in the world would God do that? what does He think about His word, that He would promote it above His own name?

scripture says that in the beginning was the word, and the word was with God, and the word was God. it says all things are held together by the word of His power. it says like the snow and rain that come down and water the earth, and make seed to grow for bread and more sowing, so shall His word be that goes from His mouth, and not return void without prospering in the thing where unto He sent it.

scripture says that the word became flesh, and dwelled among us. it says if you’ve seen Jesus, you’ve seen the Father, that He is the express image and likeness of God. the very self expression of God.

Jesus said about Himself that it was for the cross that He was born into the world. His main reason for coming was to walk as a man and fulfill the requirements of the covenant with God, and then pay the awful price for our sin with His own blood shed on the cross. that meant being cut off from the Father for 3 days. that meant going to hell in our place. God was separated from His own word, which is the very expression of Himself completely, and the revelation of Himself to us on our level, so He could pay the price that we would never be able to pay ourselves without being lost forever.

that’s not religion. that’s the most self sacrificing love that ever existed. that’s why He has magnified His word above all His name.

what does that mean for us? what difference could this make?

this makes all the difference. by doing this, by taking the repercussions of our fall, He took the entire blow of the fall. we, then, have access to His standing with God, which is unbreakable. it also reverses the corruption that turned the blessing God originally gave to man into a curse. everything God said to man in that blessing put him in a place of power and authority over creation, and empowered him to prosper in everything he put his hand to. when he turned away from God, and chose first to doubt what God’s motives were, and then to act on those doubts, trying to gain on his own what God had already given him, that blessing turned to brass along with everything else. God, by sending His word as the Son of man, fixed all that forever.

this is what romans 8 1-4 says it like this:

1 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.

2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.

3 For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh:

4 That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.

can you see now why God has magnified His word above all His name?




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When you’re up against a struggle
That shatters all your dreams
And your hope’s been cruelly crushed
By Satan’s manifested scheme
And you feel the urge within you
To submit to earthly fears
Don’t let the faith your standing in
Seem to disappear

Praise the Lord
He can work through those who praise Him
Praise the Lord
For our God inhabits praise
Praise the Lord
For the chains that seem to bind you
Serve only to remind you
That they drop powerless behind you
When you praise Him

Now Satan is a liar
And he wants to make us think
That we are paupers
When he knows himself
We’re children of the King
So lift up the mighty shield of faith
For the battle must be won
We know that Jesus Christ is risen
So the works already done

Praise the Lord
He can work through those who praise Him
Praise the Lord
For our God inhabits praise
Praise the Lord
For the chains that seem to bind you
Serve only to remind you
That they drop powerless behind you
When you praise Him


I have changed my focus. or maybe I have focused. it seems for the last two years, since the beau was injured on the job, that our finances have been hit repeatedly, in little ways, just enough to keep the struggle going. like treading water, and waves keep hitting you in the face, and keep you from getting anywhere. but not really taking you down either. I have engaged in many spiritual battles over the years, and won them. I know how to wear the armour God has given me, and how to wield the Sword of the Spirit, and lift up the shield of faith. I know how to stand, after having done all. but this battle over financial matters has been a real bear. so, I have done some personal inventory, and casting out the attitude of angst that has crept in, much like a rotten order sometimes gets in and you don’t quite know from where or how. you have to open the windows, and let the wind blow through to clear out the musty stale, and let in the fresh.

so it is sometimes with battles that seem to go on and on, and you don’t see any progress. not that faith is by seeing, but at some point there has to be results. that is the point, isnt it? so I have opened up the windows to my heart, and am letting the breath of the Spirit blow though me like a wind. let it blow all the dead rotty attitudes and debris from the world that has cluttered up my mind and my heart. for out of the heart the mouth speaks, and out of the heart are the issues of life. death and life are in the power of the tongue. whats been on my tongue lately? I have gotten into some bad habits of speaking things that are … instead of doing like God and calling those things that are not as though they were. its how He brought about light in the first place.

im focusing now. im focusing on Him. im not focusing on the promises. im focusing on the Promise Giver. im filling my heart, and my mouth, with praise for Him. He inhabits the praises of His people. things happen when His presence is manifest on the scene! let me be the lens that focuses His light … like a laser!

distress and broad places


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I  have been rather busy these days, with working a new job, and trying to take care of business. with the beau being hurt on the job in 2010, and then moving to the pacific northwest, it has been a journey full of adventures – not all of them fun. the most challenging thing has been the finances. or rather, getting over into God’s economy and out of the world’s where I have lived for way too long. seems I have an adversary who is contending my move. so I have recently spent time in God’s presence, and in His word, to get some answers and some understanding on how to get over this last, most challenging hurdle. His answer came, and here is an excerpt from a letter I wrote describing it –

i will have enough even if i get it one day at a time. His grace is sufficient for me. thats what God spoke to my heart this morning when i asked Him about these ongoing financial struggles. i was asking Him about what was it going to take to go on over. its been like that wall in the obstacle course in basic training i never was able to go over. He said this isnt so different from paul’s thorn in the flesh – still caused by people with their own agenda. so i have begun to meditate on His sufficient grace. i want to know what it is, and how to receive it. i know He told paul His power is made perfect in our weakness. and paul’s response was to say he would glory in his weakness and insufficiencies, because when he was weak, then was he strong. i like God’s strength better than mine. mine doesnt cover much. for all my will and intent, it always comes up way short. but this is another open door situation. its like, God prepares the path, opens the door, and arms me with His might. all i have to do is walk through that door and on up the path. the real battle is only in whose report will i believe. this grace is going to put us over, and the struggle wont be there anymore. the people might be, but they wont have the effect they have been having, because i am renewing my mind yet again and speaking His word of grace over everything. that is when the circumstances start changing to conform to the word of God. its not just about standing out in the storms and standing your ground. its also about stilling those storms, coming out of those distresses, and having Him put your feet in a broad place. that is His word to us.

so, i am doing more than just standing and fighting the good fight and all that. more, because im doing less. im being still. im letting God do His thing. thats what He’s been waiting for. affirmative, and make it so.

so there you have it.

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what ive been working on while I havent been here


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so have you missed me? ive been busy, with a new job I started may 17th, and trying to work on my photography too. here are my latest items. these are the first two in a series of six I am doing, available on http://society6.com/silverylizard 

red (7) gray rose light phone

red riding hoodie – modeled by brianna, my niece.

cinderella (11) 1

cinder ella – modeled by laura, my coworker.

there will be 4 more images, each with a black and white tone with one color. each is a modern figure, with one single element tying it to the classic tale. can you see it?