i want to clarify something i said in my post about mothers day.
i said i managed a few civil words to her. this is true, but not because of her. i was not having a good day. i had much inner turmoil, and those bleak feelings of isolation that have plagued me like a swarm of flies in the heat of summer. my mother had had a good outing with my sister and brother the night before, and she was telling me how she wasnt ready to go to my oldest step brother’s house warming, so soon after dad’s death. she was mostly content, tho i could hear the sullen bells of depression behind her words.
still, the struggle to be civil was my own, and not with her.
just to be clear.