we went to a place I used to know as short sands. a mile or so through forest to the small inlet, accessible only when the tide is out. our first trip there was on a holiday, and too many people were there. its best on winter days when there are only the few hardy surfers. tourists tend to leave their brains – and their manners – at home. still, we had a good time.

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the next time we went we had a better time, and the air was cooler. I had a brief run in with a woman who’s crazy little Boston terrier was off the leash, and raked my leg trying to climb up on me. he came running like mad toward me from several yards away where he was playing in the water,  and simply began jumping and raking my leg with his hyper little feet. I pushed him off once while she watched in amusement, then more forcefully a second time when he refused to stop. that’s when she had the cow, and started calling me names and acting all of 12, when she was likely my age or more. ‘he has a leash”  she exclaimed. sooo why wasn’t he on it? it’s a law on public beaches. too bad we had left our tired dogs in the car for that part of the excursion. still, we had a good time.

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I cant wait to go to Ruby Beach some time, up in the Olympic Peninsula.

the other night I sat down to write out the things I had recently asked God for. things I have been standing on the Word waiting for, which seemed endlessly not to come. I had begun to ponder why things had been at such a long standstill, when I heard the Lord say ‘ye have not because ye ask not …’. It became suddenly clear to me that I had largely been assuming to receive things, like a badly needed job, when I had not actually asked for one. I don’t really know why it is. maybe it’s because one’s faith grows even more when one asks God for something, and when it comes it results in obvious glory to Him. maybe He just likes to be asked. either way, I asked. I asked for a job, with a certain schedule and pay, and I asked for a house with four bedrooms and two baths, on five acres, with a barn for the goats. then I sat down to write out my requests, more for my own benefit, so that I will remember what I asked for and when. immediately the thoughts ran through my mind that I may have to wait for a while for these, and that I may not get everything I want. they brought with them a feeling of impending disappointment and struggle.

I pondered these thoughts for a moment. they were very familiar. but I asked ‘why would I have to wait? why is it I might not get what I ask? where do these thoughts come from?’ again, it became suddenly clear to me.

over the last too many years I have heard these very statements come from well meaning Christians, who want to shield me from disappointment, and govern me away from asking for those things I desire lest I ask for selfish reasons. but even beyond that, most seem to view the requests in the light of what I am able to get with my own efforts and resources. while it’s quite true that I might have to wait to acquire the job I want or the house I want, and I might not be able to get them on my own, it stands that I am not on my own. nor am I setting out to get these things in God’s name. I have asked One who is able, and willing, to get these things for me, according to His own word.

so, I put these thought to rest. put them in the ground, really. chased them out like flies in my house. its not that I am unwilling to wait. I have been waiting for several months now for the job. and like Lazarus, whom Jesus waited four days, until past the time that the Jews believed the soul hung around before departing for good, and then called him out of the tomb, so shall I come up out of this tomb of need and debt. and it will be plainly clear that it was the Blessing of the Lord that did it. but I will not have to wait until some undetermined time that no one knows, and I will not be disappointed with something less than I have asked. my God is able to do far about all I can think or ask.

wait and see. He will do it!

I once did a word search on joy in the bible. I found Zephaniah 3:17 in that search. it says God will joy over me with singing. the word ‘joy” used there is ‘giyl’, and it means to dance, to tremble, to leap for joy, to rejoice even to exultation. it dawned on me that God felt this way about me. no wonder I was overcome!

a couple of other verses came to mind, which I read, and saw what they were really saying.

Malachi 3:10 says bring all the tithes to the storehouse, and “’prove  Me now herewith, if I will not open to you the windows of heaven …’ and I saw how eager God is to bless me.

Mark 11:22 Jesus said ‘have faith in God’. this one struck me because I saw that it wasn’t like you hear most people quote it. you hear the inflection on ‘God’, and the implication is to have faith. most people, christian or not, are glad to see that someone has faith to carry them through trials. but faith alone is not enough. if I have faith in something I can’t see, and I lean my weight on it, it doesn’t matter how much I believe in it, if it isn’t real it won’t support me. planes, for example, can fly because along with thrust they have real air to rest their weight on, to achieve lift. if the air wasn’t there, gravity would never let them get off the ground. but Jesus put the inflection on ‘faith’, implying that God can truly be counted on to be there and to perform His oath as promised. it’s like when you say ‘have faith in me’ to someone you want to encourage. you put the inflection on the word ‘faith’. or when you exclaim that you have no faith in a leader, you do the same. it expresses the faithfulness of the person in question. Jesus said ‘have faith in God. He loves you. He keeps His word’.

I went to bed laughing, and somewhat giddy, like the first time I ever thought I was in love. everything I am facing right now seems so ineffective. I woke up laughing.

I don’t have to try anymore. trust is no longer an effort.

I crossed over.

I would like to draw your attention to a site to a site where I now have photos for sale. the site is PHOTO4ME. I found if I held the shift button the whole time I typed this, I got PHOTO$ME. how apropos … heh

anyway, please visit. if you know someone who might be interested in wall art, this is a very good place. my images can be found by typing my name (kirstin price) in the search box. just one of my ventures …

there is a link on my sidebar now so you never have to worry about forgetting where it is. see? I thought of everything.

things haven’t been proceeding as fast as I had envisioned, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t proceeding.

I really thought getting a job in my line of work would have been easier than it has been. there are always posting for positions available, but I have yet to get an interview, even after several attempts to follow up with them. these have all been with large medical groups. I have decided that I no longer want to work for large corporations. with all the occupy movements recently opposing the large corporate industries, which I support even though I don’t attend encampments, I am turning my attention to small businesses. I have applied to several small clinics, and I expect to hear from some of them. the large groups are not approachable, there is no one to contact, or if there is they give a generic ‘if we find any positions that match your job skills … ‘ yada yada yada …

we still have plans to get the goats, and start a livestock landscaping business. it seems the small business is becoming more important to the community, at least here. there is a website designed to help the small business get started, grow, and expand, with all sorts of resources and helps. I am quite excited about it. the article in the paper, where I found out about the site, went on to say that more people are turning to small businesses as a real means of surviving in the current economy. this is again along the same lines I am already feeling lead along. the big corporate giants are falling. some faster than others, and maybe not with serious consequence for some. but just the same, they are falling, at least from grace. people are losing faith in them. they are hollow, uncaring machines, that care nothing for the cogs that work for them.

but that’s another blog.

anyway, here we sit for now. currently staying with my ma, living in the RV with 4 cats and 2 dogs. its cramped, and sometimes inconvenient. but its working for now. with bills looming, and debtors ‘at the door’ so to speak, its been challenging. I have turned my attention to the Word of God, as I always do. I have been meditating on the blood of the covenant, and the God Who stood in blood when He recited the terms of that covenant to Abraham, obligating Himself to fulfill it to Abraham and his seed. He swore by His own Name, thereby making the promise more sure to that seed.

the words of this covenant have been seeds in my heart, germinating and growing, and taking root. I am confident that everything is going to be alright. and I will posting again on a regular basis.

my son is in Afghanistan still, and my daughter in law is in southern California with my two grandchildren. I won’t get to see them, but I will certainly call and talk to them. I will be so glad when he is back on domestic soil … still, I am most grateful that I have a covenant promise that he will return nothing broken, nothing missing.

today there was much rain, and I was thankful for that too. it rained like a monsoon, torrents of it. the sound it makes on the RV roof is most enjoyable to me, and I was there most of the day, spending time with the dogs and the cats (crowded yes, but still home for now). I love the rain. it is the price we pay for all the green, and the cool fresh air. it makes things a bit muddy and messy at times, but I have lived with too little rain for many years, and I rather have the wet.

it’s good to be thinking about the things I am thankful for, with the things in the world in such upheaval these days. I really have it good. I look forward to us having our  own house again, and getting the goats, and running our own business. I know it will come to pass, and I am thankful for it all now. faith is the substance of things hoped for. and I have high hopes, let me tell you! God is able to do far above all I could ask or think.

now that’s really something to be thankful for

one of the first things I did was to go to an outdoor market with my sister, which turned into a good opportunity to shoot people.

;D

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but today we pick up the rental truck, and begin the arduous task of loading it up. this will take a couple days, and then we head out of oklahoma! I am both excited and scared at the same time. my plans have had to be so fluid, and once again I have to trust God for the outcome. I will tell you more about it later. right now I am keeping my eyes on the Word of God, and standing my ground. I will be offline for a little while, while this move is under way.

you know, I trust God for everything anyway, so this is not a place im not familiar with. on the contrary … its where I live.

see you all soon! will try to keep up with my cell phone as much as I can.