at work, things shift and yet stay the same all he time.

the office manager no longer is acting like she has a peeve with me. she is a moody one, however, and known for her inconsistency. mostly i would say she lets the wind of her emotions move her.  she’s like a mother bear – protective and playful, but grouchy when aggravated. now that i no longer feel the fear that i will be fired without recourse, i am no longer stressed to breaking point. that was the root of it all. some of the things i had been reprimanded for werent even my doing. i am not the only one who makes scheduling mistakes. but since i make 95% of the appointments. my mistakes will be more noticeable.

she is the only truly unstable element in the office. but my feet are grounded firmly on a rock. i chose to stand on the promise stated in isaiah 55:12 

12For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.

and i know that i will not be fired. i will leave of my own volition, when i move back to the pacific northwest, where the mountains will greet me, and the trees shall applaud my homecoming.

the matter is therefore settled.